DISQUS

Sex and the Ivy: To All The Men I Wouldn’t Fuck

  • h-vard · 1 year ago
    Many (most) guys would rather get a blowjob than have sex so... congrats. Way to stick it to 'em Lena.
  • factsandfriction · 1 year ago
    Really? I'd chose sex over just oral, although obviously both are great!
  • Lani · 1 year ago
    Love your honesty. Love your boldness. It's inspiring.
  • Lani · 1 year ago
    Love your honesty. Love your boldness. It's inspiring.
  • sam · 1 year ago
    "What I did was every bit as fucked up as withholding sex until accumulating a certain number of dates with a guy. Or until getting a ring on my finger. Simply not wanting to have sex is one thing, but downright refusing it across the board on the basis of an ignorant and stubborn adherence to a rule (in this case, a self-made rule) is another. It reduces sex to a bargaining chip. And that’s not what it should be."

    WOW you put into words exactly what I've been thinking for the longest time. So completely true.
  • berkleebassist · 1 year ago
    This is the core of the whole post, and it's awesome. Way to go Lena!
  • h'09 · 1 year ago
    Wow. This is one of the most amazing blog posts I've read in a long time.
  • guy from last summer · 1 year ago
    Finally, some closure.
  • Maria · 1 year ago
    great post. you are absolutely entitled to fuck when you want to and if you don't, then you are by no means required to. it's not leading someone on. its simply your own personal desires, and you shouldn't feel guilty on that.

    you didn't even need to give the blowjob "payoff" if you didn't want, which, i have actually done myself. even so, this is a great line: "i may not have fucked you, but at least i swallowed."
  • TR · 1 year ago
    "Just The Tip" is a great game! Oh, and the irrational rules people make around sex make me laugh. 3 dates, love, marriage, etc.....in the end it is about if a person wants to, nothing more...nothing less.

    It still makes me chuckle when people project all sorts of stuff on sex. "What does it mean?" "How does this make me feel?" "Did I really just pile driver her next to the coffee table with her dog watching?" "Does this change things?". In the end...Sex is Sex, and what people choose to do with it is their decision. Good entry....and I'm not talking about the Tip. Okay...bad pun, but still a good entry.
  • slore · 1 year ago
    gross
  • smiles · 1 year ago
    Ugh! Please take down your picture on your twitter account! Its one thing to be open, its another thing to be disgusting. Your picture is not deep, it is not deep that he kissed you right after - all you are doing is unnecessarily exposing a very intimate moment to the world much in the same manner as that guy who released your nude pictures. Please, I love your entries and I love your daily posts, but that one really crossed the line for me (and I wish that you could see that it also crossed the line for you).
  • Lena · 1 year ago
    The picture didn't cross the line for me and I don't censor myself on the basis of what other people can handle. I've exposed way more intimate moments in writing and plenty of people think that's "disgusting" but where would I be if I listened to them?
  • h'09 · 1 year ago
    Gross pictures detract from your (pretty amazing) writing. I'm all for you posting whatever the hell you want to post -- but TheChicktionary just lost a reader today.
  • Betty Ford · 1 year ago
    Lena, you say on the Chictionary that "you're famous on the internet for all the wrong reasons" (your infamy could clearly be argued, but that's not the point, now is it), and that the Chictionary is where you're gonna make it all right.

    Putting up a picture of you with cum all over your phase doesn't make it all right. In fact, I'd argue you're back to trying to make yourself for "all the wrong reasons".

    I'm not much offended by the pic, though it is rather tasteless (bet you wish you could say the same about his cum), but what kind of an intimate moment exactly were you having? "Oh hold on baby, get the camera and take my picture, we've gotta get this one on the blog..."

    C'mon, get over yourself already... Your "guy" the one who ain't your boyfriend? He's riding your coattails of fame - he'll be the guy who got you to put up pics of his cum all over your face... "Lena Chen? Oh yeah. I fucked her. Real good, right in the mouth. Here, look!"

    Well done my dear, well done.
  • smiles · 1 year ago
    ^^^^Thank you for putting into words exactly how I feel. Lena, you played yourself with that picture, plain and simple. That picture is one for the ages and it will follow you wherever you go. I know that you have written much more graphic material, but the explicitness of your written work was always tempered with good writing and a refreshing perspective that allowed me to see you as a person that I could identify with, despite us having such different lifestyles. Posting that picture just made you look cheap and desperate, two words that I would have never used to describe you until I saw that picture.
  • Jake · 1 year ago
    Pure shock value post. It's clear you need money to fund your adventures in Europe. Way to sell yourself out.
  • Lena · 1 year ago
    And how exactly does this make me money?
  • Jake · 1 year ago
    More hits make you more money. Pretty obvious that you escalate the shock value of the blog every time you need to fund some misadventure.
  • Allison · 1 year ago
    I wouldn't write half (more than half, actually) of what Lena writes on her blog, but if you don't like being "shocked" or whatever, then why are you reading this? You obviously like it as much as everyone else does - or you're a hypocrite. And so what if she uses her ad money for trips to Europe? What else is she going to use it for? Buying a house? And if you have been paying attention to Lena, her sex life is what she writes about. That's it. Get over yourself if you don't like it.
  • Jake · 1 year ago
    Just calling a fame whore a fame whore.
  • sam · 1 year ago
    How about just calling a whore a whore?
  • rod · 1 year ago
    How about the both of you (jake and sam) just shut it?
  • Maria · 1 year ago
    Get over it. She is hardly a whore. Whore means exchange of sex for money. There's no evidence or indication she does any of that. For that matter, she's not a fame whore either.

    She is a writer. She is transcribing her experiences on her personal platform. You can't criticize her for posting what she wants to. She isn't doing anything atypical of most college students. Don't hate Lena for writing about her life, and writing it well. If you have a problem with how she lives her life, then don't live your life the way she lives hers. She is entitled to do exactly as she pleases. She isn't harming anyone, and if you don't like it, stop reading.
  • Lena · 1 year ago
    I make all of 50 cents/day with Google. Maybe I might break a dollar!
  • helenrips · 1 year ago
    And that wouldn't even be a fucking Euro!

    Maybe if we get together for a sex tape, we'll finally receive monetary gain.

    I love you whore, and that pic was kind of hot.
  • blah · 1 year ago
    I, too, am checking out after your latest twitter posts. Your writing at least allowed the mind to wonder, and perhaps to relate. The photos bring the reader crashing down to crude images of a sexual anarchy that not everyone wants exposure to.
  • adsense · 1 year ago
    Shark. Jumped.
  • E.T. · 1 year ago
    What makes you guys think she gives a damn whether she lost a reader or what you think of her choices, that blog is her private blog (which she has stated 100's of times) and didn't make it to replace this one, you don't like it, then don't view it, honestly everyone gets so uppity about another persons life, I bet the rest of you do some stuff that everyone else would say is disturbing and flat out wrong, she at least has the guts to put it out there in the open to spark some conversation, not something I could say about the rest of you
  • mmmaggie · 1 year ago
    i agree. the chicktionary is your private blog lena, and if readers can't handle blunt sexuality then i'm not sure why they're checking it out it in the first place. many of your entries have described in exacting detail sexual acts that are much more *gasp* risque (at least they must be risque for your detractors) than a mere blowjob. if people can't handle an image of it than they are not comfortable enough with sex to be following a blog like yours. kudos for being so open and honest lena. i thought the picture was pretty awesome.
  • HL · 1 year ago
    How naive are you two fools above? This is not a "private" blog. If it were meant to be private, it would not be on the world wide web.

    Someone who lets it all hang out is not charming or "awesome." Such a person loses appeal because she clearly has no sense of boundaries. Such a person also loses others' respect. This may not matter to you much in an insulated college setting, but it is extremely important out there in the real world.
  • mmmaggie · 1 year ago
    maybe she's not awesome to you, but she has made it more than clear that she will post whatever she wants to post, especially in regards to the chicktionary, which is meant to be a more of a record of her everyday life than this blog is. if you hate or disrespect her so much, then why the fuck are you still reading it? why do you care? she obviously couldn't give a crap about what people like you think, which is evident in this recent posting on the chicktionary: http://thechicktionary.com/post/35849363/look-i...
  • Low energy? Drink Haterade? · 1 year ago
    If Lena has no mission in writing about sex, why is she constantly claiming to be radical? Why would she bother including a statement at the bottom of her picture about how her _insert inconvenient and long non-label here_ wiped her mouth for her and kissed her with tongue, somehow demonstrating his deep respect for her by those acts and giving her the perfect opportunity to illustrate sexual equality? If that's not some kind of statement, then I'll eat my hat. If she's going to make such claims before a potentially infinitely huge audience, she'd better be open to scrutiny. And like hell she doesn't care what other people think about her -- she has a blog. She makes her living by writing about her personal life for others to read. The tagline for thechicktionary is "I'm famous on the internet for all the wrong reasons. Here's where I make it right." She constantly feels the need to defend herself. Gimme a break of that Kit Kat Bar.
  • fellated · 1 year ago
    Lena, no need to defend yourself. This is your blog and if people don't like what you write or the pix you post, fuck 'em. Don't read the damn blog.

    Having received many a blowjob, both the post and the twitter pic was appealing to the prurient interest. :) And better yet, the writing was interesting; some of the best in a while, and not because of the subject either!

    My only "critique": the wasted cum around your mouth in the pic. But since you say "at least I swallowed" then maybe there was just too much there to handle. So I say good for you and your ability to let it all hang out -- figuratively and literally. Keep up the good work -- all of it.
  • hmmm · 1 year ago
    good to know that when you're "wary" of dicks, you suck on them...
  • Great · 1 year ago
    Ladies, when you're wary of men, suck their dicks! That'll show 'em!!!!

    Your picture made me vomit my breakfast.
  • Roxy · 1 year ago
    Swallowing is plenty in my book. Most men complain that they don't get a BJ. These guys should consider themselves lucky. You satisfied them and got nothing in return... well as far as I can tell.
  • Minna · 1 year ago
    I mean this in the best way it can be understood. Know that I love your blog and your raw, tell-it-like-it-is style. I say this not because I want you to change your subject matter, but because I find your writing to be fantastic:
    I would really like to see what you would do with a subject other than sex and sexuality.
  • MattieHilaire · 1 year ago
    Regarding your cumshot chicktionary post:

    You are not the epitome of sexual liberation. Any girl can suck a dick, fuck multiple partners, and put nude/post-fallatio pictures of themselves on the internet. In fact, lots of girls do it. They're called porn stars. Are they "sexually liberated?" I wouldn't argue that none are, but many of them -- 18-year-old girls with low self esteem and shitty upbringings -- are victims of ignorance and misguidance in a sex-obsessed culture. When I think of a sexually liberated woman, I envision someone who loves her body, who is aware of her own wants and needs, and who acts according to her own values and morals and not those of others. I do not think of someone who (without pretense of art or any other purpose) puts "sexy" pictures of herself on the internet, who fucks without discrimination or discretion (oh sorry, i guess you don't fuck ALL of them -- you only give head to some of them), and who is under the impression that she's radical just because she (OMFG!) has sex with boys, likes gay people, and feels the need to write about her every sexual encounter. You are a sensationalist who feeds on drama and shock and who is concerned with nothing but yourself, your minuscule claim to fame, and your own image. If you really wanted to be a sexual pioneer, you wouldn't be so goddamn self-involved. You're more like one of those little amateur porn girls who forfeits her own worth for the sake of getting approval from others and justifies it by saying she's being free with her body. Your picture wasn't in bad taste because uptight people are shocked by sex/cum/your nasty dripping chin; your picture was in bad taste because it serves no purpose. It doesn't teach anyone about what sex should be. It only says, "Look at me; I have semen on my face." Obviously, there are many who think sex is dirty and meant only for marriage or procreation, and those people, to a great extent, are wrong. And some people are not comfortable with their bodies or with exploring the ways in which they can give and get pleasure -- not wrong, but still sad. The way you counter those things is by real education -- teaching people about their bodies and safe and pleasurable sex, and helping them discover and feel ok with their own sexual orientation and moral thresholds -- not by putting your less-than-shocking, mostly nasty sexual experiences on the web. I do not hate you because you write things that are true but that make me uncomfortable; I hate you because you are so far off the mark. I do not think of you as a woman with loose morals; I think of you as a woman who has no idea what she's talking about.

    And furthermore, regarding your views on religion, who the fuck cares what you think about religion? If you want others to be tolerant, why don't you try being tolerant yourself? Your belligerent attitude towards religion is not only ridiculous, but it's also not very interesting. Nobody reads your blog because they actually care what you think. They read it because it is sensationalist tripe (hell, that's why I read it -- so that I have something to rant about at the end of every day).
  • HL · 1 year ago
    Well, I wouldn't say I hate Lena; but I feel sorry for her, and disrespect her, for the reasons that MattieHilaire lists above. Lena seems hellbent on ruining her life, as though she has no control over it. Lena, you DO have control over your own life; please try to exercise it. Trying to shock or titillate people is not worth losing your respectability.
  • adsense · 1 year ago
    If she's ruining her life it's her life to ruin. And if that is the case then her blog serves as a warning for posterity. But the real shame about the posting these photos is what little concern she has for the sensibilities of her readers - who, to my knowledge, never bemoaned the lack of semen in her photos. She completely disregards her current readers only to slake a thirst for notoriety. Why her friends are defending this shameless self-promotion is beyond me.

    (And the idea that she only wants to make sex seem less sacred is bullshit in light of the fact that similar images exist all over the internet. Lena knows the only difference here is that as a Harvard undergrad she is bound to get more attention. What's more, why should sex be less sacred?)
  • Betty Ford · 1 year ago
    MattieHillaire - You have articulated exactly the sentiments that I think a great many people feel regarding Lena and her "talent". Thank you for your stellar on the mark commentary. You my friend are brilliant.
  • a peer · 1 year ago
    incredibly on point. Lena, you may like to believe that the people who write negatively here are just haters or stupid conservatives who lack your liberated view, but they're not. Many (though of course not all) of them are intelligent, caring, open-minded people whose third person point of view can offer some well-needed perspective. They see a you that you refuse to or ignore at times. You're very quick to respond to people with defensive replies or attacks, but I rarely ever see you change your mind and accept the criticism you receive here. Being stubborn is not a strength and being strong is accepting your mistakes and trying to improve. I wish you accepted the criticism as easily you do the praise.

    Like others, I wish you wrote more on other subjects. You can write well, but the sensationalist nature your posts often take on detracts from your talent rather than adds to it (regardless of the topic). Your blog has given me some perspective and I am thankful for that, but it's often despite your sensationalist topics or tirades, not because of them.

    it is remarkably easy for a Harvard student to get attention for bucking tradition. Attention is not respect or admiration, and people take you less seriously for your blog, not more. I find your blog very entertaining and interesting, and that's why I read it, but as many have pointed out over time, it is because it's like watching a train wreck and little more.
  • The Wise One · 1 year ago
    MattieHilaire, you are awesome. Thank you for stating what many of us felt but were unable to express: that Lena's blogs are ridiculous not because they are raunchy, but because they are pointless. I hope that somewhere out there, you have a blog that teaches women to be sexually liberal without damaging themselves.

    HL also makes a good point about respectability. Someday, more likely than not, Lena will have to get a job. And more likely than not, employers will do a background check on her and find these tasteless photos, and reject her. Sure, people can say, "Oh, I don't want to work for any company who cares about such things," but most employers do care, and rightfully so. They do not want a person who cannot be trusted to treat herself and others with respect.
  • SAMLOVER · 1 year ago
    And how awesome is it that she STILL constantly talks about her "ex-boyfriend" grad student from Penn (I know the guy, went to school with him) who was NEVER her boyfriend but just one of the obscure and unlimited number of fish in the sea of Lena's used men. Clearly she's not over the guy- never will be. What made him so special? Guarantee we'll see her writing about this any day now which is just more proof that she's obsessed (the very thing she claimed he was). It's fascinating how amazingly autobiographical her criticisms are.

    Taking nothing away from that experience, he did say the sex was fucking AMAZING. Well, you know, when all she does is fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck and sucksucksucksuck she's bound to get good at it.

    I also love how she STILL insists on blaming him for the "nude photo scandal" which she CLEARLY perpetrated herself. And did anyone notice how she just posted a bunch of nude pics of herself on chicktionary the other day? Ummmmm, hypocrite anyone?

    Lena, Lena, Lena... really. Just be honest. For once. Everyone is SO TIRED of your inventions. We desperately want to like you, to be drawn to you for positive reasons... but we just... can't.

    She's the ultimate self-saboteur.
  • JD · 1 year ago
    I am close friends with the girl he was sleeping with while he was also sleeping with Lena. He's a pathological liar and a cheat, amongst many other fine things.

    She gave the asshole many chances, but he kept lying to her about his involvement with other 19-20 year old girls and escorts. He's 35 mind you. She told me that he has some serious problems that he's not getting help for, and I'm not surprised. He sounds like a sick dude.

    Lena was lucky she got out before she could.
  • JD · 1 year ago
    Oh, and he and my friend eventually ended up getting into a relationship together, yet he still supposedly slept with other chicks and various characters. Now my friend is scared shitless that she contracted some STD from this guy.

    From what I hear, his background is scary...the background that he doesn't tell the hundreds of girls he fucks. He would put you to shame Lena.

    No one deserves the hell that this guy put her through. Be cautious.
  • JD · 1 year ago
    If I lived close enough I'd track the bastard and beat him myself.
  • Nate · 1 year ago
    "When I think of a sexually liberated woman, I envision someone who loves her body, who is aware of her own wants and needs, and who acts according to her own values and morals and not those of others."

    Sounds an awful lot like Lena to me.
  • Seriously? Ew · 1 year ago
    Thanks for ruining sex for me!

    Now every time i even contemplate giving someone i love a blowjob the image of your piggy attention whore face is going to pop into my mind and deflate my flower.

    There's a reason why sex isnt often spoken or written about in such detailed blow-by-blow way, why it's seen as somewhat of a sacred, private act. Cause no one wants it fucking tainted by horrible sluts such as yourself. OH. LIGHTBULB!

    Fuck it. You make me want to turn conservative and marry a closeted fag and dedicate my life to flower arrangement.
  • INLIKEWITHPURITANS · 1 year ago
    Jesus, a blog has this much power over your life? Please go ahead and find your own personal 'fag' and remove yourself from the blowjob pool. Okay Bunny
  • Kristi · 1 year ago
    Wow. Great post - you have this amazing way of articulating in words what I often feel.
  • Kristi · 1 year ago
    And - those who can't appreciate Ms.Lena's attempt at self-expression, why bother reading??
  • Cynictron3030 · 1 year ago
    "Oh my goodness, more power to you girl!"

    I have the strangest feeling that our good friend here doesn't need encouragement or ego-bolstering comments. Those who read this blog religiously and hope to one day meet this blogger's sex life's denouement with the apex of their sex lives may need to say to believe it, but hell, if Lena doesn't believe, why in the name of Bhudda would she be doing it in the first place?
  • Jaz · 1 year ago
    "I may have not fucked you, but at least I swallowed" greatest line ever!
    But: didn't you use condoms? You do know that you can get STD's from oral sex?
  • ko · 1 year ago
    I'm sure it just broke all their hearts you were giving them BJs.
  • jeff · 1 year ago
    oh my god, four months without sex, you rebel!
  • jjj · 1 year ago
    i love this girl. honest and she doesn't give a shit. you go girl! :)
  • Cynictron3030 · 1 year ago
    "i love this girl. honest and she doesn't give a shit. you go girl! :)"

    ^^^
    That is EXACTLY what I'm talking about
    It's a ridiculously poorly masked attempt at boosting one's bottomed out ego. It makes me laugh and blow smoke out my nose
  • Soulless Whartonite · 1 year ago
    Errr

    I think your blowjob-summer is a misinterpretation of sorts. Sucking off a bunch of guys doesn't really constitute a victory on your end, especially if you're swallowing.

    Furthermore, the picture with the semen on your face... I should first tell you that I've been reading this site longer than most. I'm really disappointed to see how things have changed and how you've chosen to handle certain situations.
  • yuif · 1 year ago
    fuck up
  • brett · 1 year ago
    heh... obviously you don't remember me, Elle. Brett. remember now? yeah, I'm just here to point out the inaccuracy in your blog - while we didn't have intercourse, your cockteasing ass definitely did let me stick the tip in (I don't mean that I stuck the tip in your ass, just your pussy). I'll let you in on a little secret: even with just the head of my penis inside you, I could tell that you were pretty loose, that's why I didn't really give a fuck when you stopped the penetration when my head slipped in there. I'm not normally the type to brag about my sexual conquests online, but I couldn't resist correcting you.

    advertising your celibacy when you've clearly got no problem with partial penetration is just lame in my opinion.
  • INLIKEWITHPURITANS · 1 year ago
    Lord the saviour complex has gotten out of control round here lately. I see a gift section coming soon, Commenting T-shirts stating "I wear a Crown of Thorns while I suffer for Lena's Sex". I think the responses here have proven why Lena's writing/cum shots are important- people still aren't comfortable splitting the difference between their views of sex and other's. People have different views on sex and THATS OKAY.
    I think people are missing the boat when they expect someone to honour their personal, subjective views on sex or exposure. Criticize Lena's writing all you want, it can occasionally be a bit cloying, but the subject matter? Group think when it comes to sex is very not cool- group sex on the other hand......